Hello Everybody! I currently have no glasses at the moment and will not have glasses for the next few weeks. I do not want to have to postpone blogs until I get them. They may be shorter but I hope they will still be encouraging.
The topics I am going to be dealing with this month is struggling in a time of uncertainty. Each week there will be links for charities and organisations which help people who are struggling with mental health issues and suicidal thoughts. This comes from my heart, having a mental health issue is nothing to be shamed for. There can be a lot of stigma if you are a Christian who would voice you are having mental health issues. I am sorry, the church does not do better to be more educated and more aware on mental health issues. What you are struggling with you need the right support and help and my prayer would be for the Lord to surround you with the right people, who will not judge but will support you and walk with you. Please be encouraged, that your faith is not obsolete just because of your struggles.
One topic I want to deal with first, is learning to be honest with our emotions and our spiritual state. If you need any biblical examples for this, then please flip through the book of Psalms. They are full of honest and raw emotions and thought processes. Honestly if they are in the Bible, then you can believe God can take you at your rawest. There need be no shame or fear. David was one of the main writers of the Psalms, the same David who was the man after the Lord’s heart. In Psalm 69, David wrote these words ‘I sink in the miry depths, where there is no foothold. I have come into the deep waters; the floods engulf me. I am worn out calling for help; my eyes fail, looking for my God.’ (V2-3). David was someone who knew the Lord and he knew the Lord knew him. He was honest with the Lord because that was the on way progress could happen.
To begin with, I want to share an honest testimony. The reason I want to do this series is due to it being a journey for myself and for others to know there is hope and even in the struggle there can be beauty.
When I look at my own life, in the current state I am in. I spend a lot of time talking with the Lord about how I feel. I trust the Lord, to be vulnerable with him. More than I could be, with any person I know. Not getting too personal but a lot of my sadness comes from the grief of what I had in the past and the fear that I will not progress in the future like I thought I would. All I can see is myself sinking into all the thoughts of negativity and anxiety I have. Honestly I cry a lot at the moment and I am constantly trying to keep my trust and hope in the Lord because I do not know what I would do if I did not have my faith. I keep trusting the Lord will guide me to the right people to do life with, to help me make wise decisions for my future and to walk with me through everything I am going through. I truly want to honour the Lord with my whole life and I know the Lord will use this season to glorify his name; which will be such a powerful testimony over my life.
It is not okay, for people to rush a process on you so you instantly feel better. What you are going through does not instantly get fixed by a snap of someone’s fingers. I have been learning you have to let the process happen, the people who matter will walk alongside you. Currently, I am struggling to be able to speak how I feel to people. I do feel pressure to be on my A-game, to be the positive and optimistic person I normally am. However, this season has hit me with a lot of rejection and has knocked my self-worth quite a bit. I am thankful at the moment for the people who will come and sit with me. Who will just listen or who will watch a bit of entertainment with me. I am thankful for the people who will not just say they will pray for me but actually will take the time to be present. At the moment I am struggling in a time of uncertainty. I am thankful for God providing me with the beautiful people, who put no judgement on me but who simply will walk with me.
I am a Christian who struggles with over-thinking which leads me to have anxiety and constant thoughts of regret. I am not ashamed to struggle because I know the Lord is with me. Where I may be met with judgement, I know the Lord will surround me with people who will care and walk with me. I know I will not always feel like this but I will not deny, God will use this in some way for his good.
Application: Take some time to reflect on how you are, in all its honesty. Whether good or bad. Don’t be ashamed to bring it before God and to keep surrendering it. Pray for the guidance to be led to the right people, who will listen and walk with you through this period. Remind yourself of the importance of talking and be compassionate and patient with yourself.
Psalm 61v1-2 Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think. A.A Milne