Each year on my blog, I try to add something new. For this year, I want to start doing a wrap up of the month. (Even though I missed January). Which looks briefly at the highlights of the month, my faith journey and everything else that comes with day to day life. It is a nice way to process and reflect on how the month has gone. This month has seen me move back home from Amsterdam, I have gone into a new job, met many new people and have been continuing to do ministry work in many different ways. From flicking through my journal, I can see that I have been trying to process how quickly life has been moving on. While being reminded, how faithful and close God is through it all. Here is my wrap up of February.
Truthfully, February has been a more emotional month for me. In returning home from Amsterdam. Then going into a new job where I had to learn to do everything. A lot of the time I felt overwhelmed. However, each time I felt like this there was always someone to talk to. Whether it being going to the Lord in prayer (which I need to learn to do a little more) or a face to face conversation with someone. It is incredible to see that change because I used to bottle everything up, until it all exploded and that was never nice. Each morning, I have been reading my ‘Jesus Calling’ devotional. I am thankful for how the Lord uses those words to speak into the heart of my situation. It reminds me of how close he is and how he never calls me to anything, that he will not walk with me through. Even with my job, there are still a lot of systems,etc, I am getting used to using but the Lord has been so supportive in helping me to learn those things. Also, I am incredibly thankful for the people I get to work with. They are kind, supportive and have made me feel welcome from the very beginning. It is the first job, I have not been shy in and have been myself. I feel I have been placed so purposefully there. Although, I have felt February was overwhelming. I have found a lot to rejoice in.
In regards to specifically my faith, I feel that I have been learning to lean into the Lord and cherish my time with Lord. One of my favourite moments of the day, especially after work is to come and read my bible. This is normally after I have had some dinner and I have a coffee in hand, I escape up into my room. This month I have been able to read 1 Samuel, Romans and I finished Hebrews this morning. I have enjoyed immersing myself in the word, learning how people lived out their faith and how they were instructed to grow deeper in their faith. I have loved learning more about the character of Jesus and the faithfulness of God through the Old and the New Testament. I have rejoiced in the victories that people were able to have and the faith that carried them through their life. I have tried to stop reading the bible with the intention of gaining things for myself, instead to read it to spend time to get to know the Lord better. I was in awe of the faith that was highlighted through Hebrews 11, if you need some encouragement I would recommend to read it now. It is a huge testimony of what a life of faith looks like. Hebrews 11v39-12v1-3 ‘These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised, since God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect. Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses,let us throw off anything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of our faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so you will not grow weary and lose heart.’ May we keep trusting and walking faithfully with the Lord.
I have been working on my prayer life, journaling has helped to remind me to pray over my life. No matter how small it may be. I have been encouraged to keep praying for others, whether it be a specific message or someone’s name popping up in my head. I am trying to learn, to lift all things before the Lord. In my walking to and from work, I use that as a quiet time. I walk and process the day and thank God for all he has already done and continues to do. I do not use that time specifically to pray but I do use it as a time of peace with God. A blessing over the past few months has been the transformation of my mind, from that which was always anxious driven to that which tries to deal peacefully with situations as they come.
I am thankful for times in which I have been able to have ministry opportunities, especially being able to share about the faithfulness of God with my church family. I have been encouraged by messages from people, being able to share about our faith and being vulnerable about our highs and lows. I am thankful for friends, who are intentional within our conversations. Where we are able to support and bless each other.
In general February has been a month of transition, nothing is truly settled at the moment. That is okay. I just take each day as it comes and I am thankful for each day that I am given. I am thankful I get to be back with my family for a while. I am not the fondest of the town I live in but I have my favourite book shop and coffee shop back. I think I go to my coffee shop, at least twice if not three times a week. I have a new purpose for why I am back. I am loving being able to start new friendships and pick up old ones. I have started reading again, which I love. Even though a lot has changed this month, there is still a lot that is the same old Tori. I try to find the joy and the beauty even on the tougher days. I feel thankful that God has been so faithful, in providing everything that I need. I am intrigued to what the rest of the year will hold.
Romans 15v13 ‘May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.’
Tomorrow brings in March. March is a month that brings some new changes. I will turn 24 near the end of the month, which is exciting. I will, hopefully, continue to work. Spring will come in, in all its glory. That means a lot more beauty instead of the grey days that have been a constant companion to February. Cassandra Clare, releases the long awaited ‘Chain of Gold’. There will be fresh opportunities to learn and to grow.
For you who are reading this, I hope you will be able to find some blessings in the past month. If this past month has not been so great, I pray that there will be fresh opportunities in the days ahead. Where you can, may you leave the past behind and step into the present with freedom.
‘You were made for this life, terrifying and beautiful as it may be. holding on in troubled times, finding light in the little things.’ Morgan Harper Nichols
May you have a blessed week. Remember you are loved and cherished. Love Victoria.