‘ Maybe it’s OK if I’m not okay, cause the one who holds the universe is holding onto me. Maybe it’s all right if I’m not all right, cause the one who hold the stars is holding my whole life.’ ( ‘Maybe It’s okay’, We are Messengers)
I wanted to wrap up the May blogs by looking at surrendering all, the past two weeks we have looked at our purpose and worth found in God. In finding our purpose and worth, it now comes down to surrendering our old selves and allowing the Lord to transform us and lead us. Which was always his will for our life. Psalm 32v8 ‘I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.’ I am learning daily what it means to allow God to have control, I am learning it is about being patient. God is not in a rush, I am the sort of person that likes to get everything done quickly, that is not God’s way. Even this morning, when I woke up my mind was full of everything that I needed to do. I felt like I was being told to walk into town, grab a coffee and read for a while. There was a lot of me that was reluctant to do that, it was a Saturday morning and town would be busy. I did it, I ended up in a different coffee shop than I was used to. The coffee shop was calm and peaceful, I could have sat there all day and read. I received a blessing from doing that, I could have had a morning full of work but instead I got enjoy some peace. It refreshed my mind and made coming back to do work more enjoyable. For some that may sound silly but it was what I needed. I got to enjoy God’s beauty as well. I walk along a lot of main roads to get into town, I came across these wonderful roses and the smell was incredible. It lifted my spirits a little more.
Another way that God has been teaching me to let him have control is through a book, that is ‘Uninvited’ by Lysa Terkeurst. If you are following me on Instagram, I am constantly sharing the content from that book because the Lord has spoken such freedom through her words. I believe it was a gift from God, that came at his timing for this season in my life. It challenges my view on where I let my identity lie and what I am choosing to fill my life with. I want to share a quote from the book, that I have been meditating on.
‘We run a at breakneck pace to try and achieve what God simply wants us to slow down enough to receive. He really does have it all worked out. The gaps are filled. The heartache is eased. The provision is ready. The needs are met. The questions are answered. The problems are solved.’ (Lysa TerKeurst, ‘Uninvited’, p36)
I am constantly trying to have control, running after worldly motivations to try and find purpose and life. I have got it so wrong. If I am not coming first to God with everything that I am and have. Then I am running after meaningless things. It is when I slow down and I allow God to direct me, that my life feels more at peace and the way that I am pursuing seems more meaningful. It is me learning to trust in God’s timing, God really does have it all figured out and always has. When I take my eyes of his way, I become like Peter when he became overwhelmed by the storm and began to sink in his circumstances. While the Lord will meet me there just like he did Peter, I believe he asks the same question. ‘Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him, “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”, (Matthew 14v31). I have to come realise that the God I believe in is in full control. Where doubts and fears come, they are not mightier than who God is. That may be a truth I have to constantly speak over my life but I know that through my weaknesses God will always be greater. Zephaniah 3v17 ‘The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.’.
The lyrics I began my blog with, are beautiful. It shows how much God is in control. He holds all of creation and yet God holds me tight. I am not overlooked or alone. I am learning that the more I allow God in, the life that I believed to be dull he shows me all the colours that have always been there. I want to share more of the lyrics with you because, God never wastes anything. When life looks an utter mess, God is fully in that situation. It can be so hard to believe, from the ashes God can bring absolute beauty. ‘And if all of my shame hadn’t drove me to hide in the shadows. Then I wouldn’t know the beauty of being free.’ There is such grace and freedom when we allow God to take control. I am learning each day, that it is not easy. Pride and selfishness get in the way, I want to look like I have it altogether. I can truthfully say, when I let the Lord lead, my life is more fruitful and joyful. Even on the days when I say to the Lord ‘I have no idea what is going on’, I know a peace over my life. I know that life will not always be easy but I trust that whatever may happen, that God holds it in its entirety. That nothing can take away the joy of knowing that when God is in control, even the hardest circumstances can not overcome him.
I am still learning what it looks like to surrender and to allow God to have full control. I am thankful for the blessings that I already know and am willing to be obedient to what the Lord has next.
This wraps up May and I pray that these blogs have been a blessing in your life. All that the Lord has being doing in my life, he can do in yours and so much more. Remember that you are never beyond God’s grace, may you find hope and peace in his presence. I pray that your life will go from strength to strength as you walk more intimately with the Lord. You are loved and cherished. Have a wonderful week and I pray that you will keep on learning. Love Victoria. xx